in the past few months i have experienced some real lows in my life. Instead of me choosing my friends, i let them choose me...big mistake! I live in a housing community...the last person who lived here died of a crack overdose. His friends would get out of jail and think this was still some kind of place to do that stuff. I let these people in. I did not like how they treated eachother and themselves. Kicked them out, cleaned and scrubbed the place and now it is really home. Started dressing better, started therapy, and joined 2 clubs where lesbians can feel safe. I have a part time job until find something more substantial. I know i am smart. I am glad i never did any crazy stuff those people did. So i feel a bit of a void in my life. I still have my best friend of 5 years. I am going to take it slow and choose carefully. Sometimes i am not so patient, but i aim to attend those club functions and make careful choices. Am i leaving anything out? Love, nuckingfutz