I'm the big brother of three. My second brother is married with a 3 year old son(my nephew that i love so much), my third brother is with a girlfriend and being together for a couple of years and me the big brother is a single and maybe a boring loner. I haven't been on a date for very long and every valentines day and holiday season is a time i want to vanish from this world. I suck at dating, i don't know what to say to a woman. Going out by myself sometimes is sad and even boring obviously i don't have anyone to go out with. I went to the beach today and wathcing people getting together and me in my own made me feel to leave the beach at the moment. I wish i would never existed. I guess i must accept my current lifestyle even if it makes me miserable as always. I don't know what to do and what i should do to change what's happening to me. It's so deppressing what i'm going through right now. I'm hopeless.