the last two days have been a blur of headaches, foggy surrealness and blurred vision. i don't even wear my glasses when i am using the putter. lots of talking and disconnected. trying to stay focused. no sense of time or matter. someone is cooking someone washed clothes, took a shower, washed hair. just want to go to sleep feel so wiped out can't shake the tunnel vision and headache. what's going on--am i losing my mind or myself have to feed the dogs but can't wake up.
can't live like this--don't even know who i am right now if i am anyone at all if i even exist maybe i don't and all this is a dream or something out of a bad movie. a long hallway a maze all dead ends no place to hide or way out no color only grey and white or beige where is the color run and run and run lots of doors don't open all locked jusst want to sleep no more talk no more tell stop now and turn off.