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Originally Posted by thunderbear
Hi Persey. I agree with Pom. Sounds like the root of your problm is your parents. And how they treat you. If you moved out it will be alot better on you. And if it helps I have panic attacks triyng to go to sleep and as soon as I open my eyes in the morning.  |
i can go to sleep pretty easily if nohting happen... if i got waken up by them... ill ended up with fast heart beat... which im doom to sleep...
waking up with fast heart beat because my dad will shut the door very loud.. n he will bang my door to wake me up.. im afraid of him... so i try to wake up b4 he does... and have my ears always awake to pick up noise from his room... im crazy i dont really sleep i think
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Originally Posted by jerrymichele
I agree with all the other post, that you should leave. You could look on craigs list, or look in the news paper to start looking for a place to live. You can also find a different job threw craigs list. You know I have anxiety also. I really didn't want the meds, but it has really helped me. You can go to a regular MD to get the meds also. I have had to do that a lot. The meds will help you sleep better. |
i think is time to go on online interview class .. since i fail all my interview... as for MD... maybe the places u lived and the places im from r different... we need to see specialist that cost a bom ... (we often joke that nowaday the doctors here r not honest)
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Originally Posted by RubyRedd
i know where you sit in hell. my seat is som where near the front. i have been made to feel guilty my whole life by my mother. in school a wrong answer was a disgrace. i was meant to become a famous scientist(her goal). at 19 i married a man and moved 60 miles away. i still could not get away. my husband made the most money to support us. i am not able to have children. a failure. and because of my mental illness he wanted me to leave. he divorcd me this year. i have fought my way to be able to have a life. it took me 35 years to break out of my invisible prison. from your use of english i'm guessing that being the son is an 'honor'. and you must follow your father. to get away is for you and your happiness. to stay is for your father's.
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sometimes i dont understand why parents love to make us feel guilty... if they hate us so much.. better just dont have us in the 1st place.. often this thought came back again and again.. which now i decided i dont want to have kids, i fear ill abuse them in the near future.
yes wrong answer at school is a disgrace here too... i got beaten at school and slap n beaten at home for having v low marks from the examination.
it seems like we been living in our parents' shadow too.. to be what they once wanted to be... sigh
im sorry about your divorce...
but by the way im a female too... i just dare not go into relationship because i know the kind of man i like will likely be rejected by my parents.. which i will be the one who suffer in the later day...
i hate following my father.. because he always think he is the mastermind.. he is so smart n such..... living in his shadow is something im not proud of... i just need to get out...
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im so relunctant to send off my resume (ugly resume) to employers too... im just too afraid of everything...
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A Shocking News:
It seems to me that being a daughter or better a female have no value in the society I'm Living in.
What shocked me on 4 Jan 2010 hurt me so badly that now there will have nothing to stop me from leaving this Earth.
I used to think that I created the story of parents hating me, but it finally confirm on 4 Jan 2010.
I get to know it from the neighbour, he was told by my dad that I am a girl which eventually will marry and leave the home, so whatever things also he wont inherit it to me. (I'm fine with it, but what sadden me was this is how my dad think, and my mum agrees with it)
I hold my tears until i reached home, showed tantrum and slammed the door, and was questioned by my dad. But i can't tell the truth, because i know what he capable of doing.
I cried and cried, praying to god to end my life, or let me straight jackpot, and so i can offically leave this home without them looking down on me.. just because i am a Female, a Daughter, A Sister.
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I fear soon i become the abuser myself...
I fear of not able to control myself and repeat the footstep of those abusing me I used to think of marriage and have my own family, but now I fear i will abuse my own child.. and choose not to have child... why let them suffer when i know how it feel....