((((muffy))))

See, I actually have already been over that with her... about 2 years ago actually. The thing is, our last encounter was just too much that I vowed I wouldn't be in contact with her unless she initiated it (which I SERIOUSLY doubt will ever happen). To contact her now would just be ... useless. I know exactly the response that I would get .... she would apologize and say that we can try and do better at keeping in touch, but it wouldn't happen. I don't see much use in getting my heart more smunched in.

I have a little better perspective now on this today, and I can see that I shouldn't be in touch with her ..... the pain however, still there

Thanks for the replies and support everyone... it means more than you know