Stay strong my friend....as you said, you don't want to be part of this drama....this guy would never ever grow up...he will be 60 years old and do the same things...he doesn't want to be adult...so why bother yourself...
let him go off from your body, wash him off from your brain completely....
I can hear you that you are missing him....I am in the same boat as you....but then when I think logically and I remember all the hurtful things that he did to me like not calling me after sex or flirting with other girls in front of me, then I don't want him at all...
Actually, I feel so strong for not wanting him and not letting him to be with me...and I think he's so pissed at me too...
You don't want any STD, specially that you are so young....just keep in your mind that if results are negetive is still not 100% that you are clean, because some STDs can stay dorman for awhile....yes, that's the scary part of the whole virus thingy....I'm sure that you are clean, and there is nothing to be worry about, but I just wanted you to know that....and that's the most important thing, YOUR HEALTH....I was stupid enough to sleep with him although he told me that he has herpes, but thank GOD, he broke up with me...each time, we had sex, I was so nerves, couldn't get that off from my mind, because even with condom still there is a chance to catch them....last time, I was with him, I told him that yes I am concern about it...and then I didn't let happen to just sleep with him...and he knows it and he's so pissed at me....well...too bad...he goes and sleep around, I don't want to catch his sh..
I'm sure one day we will find that special person and we will both be very happy to be dumped by these jerks...
take care of yourself and stop calling him
Marjan