Thanks for the response, I really appreciate your support. You all are very kind.
I'm not so sure about the therapy idea, just because I think (at least in MY situation) I'd be overreacting a tad. I'm sorry, I simply can't help but dub this a "minor" issue. Maybe that's an issue in itself? I don't know, hehe. :P
Fortunately, in response to one question, I have forgiven him. He was just a perverted boy who was probably a bit confused -- for all I know, he was abused in a similar way.
But for the most part, I'm a perfectly normal young adult -- I guess I've just been wrestling with a few problems lately and I suppose that what happened to me (or the fact that it was a secret for so long, at least) did have an effect on me, or I wouldn't be wondering about it.
And I can already tell you, that it's helpful to talk it out in this forum... helps me figure things out without feeling judged or weird about it all. I think if I were to initiate discussion with my mom again she would, not on purpose, start judging me and trying to determine if all my memories are in good shape. And that'd be difficult (I know this, because this is what happened last time).
So I'm not sure what changes I might make in my life/thinking, etc, I just have this feeling in my gut that this small part of my childhood has affected my development... in other words, it would explain a few things that are unusual about me and if I can understand that, I think maybe I can change some bad habits (like putting myself down, etc).
So thanks so much for your words!
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