Is it possible that you were dissociated and not know you were missing the time? It's only recently that I am becoming aware of time lost. I guess I may have noticed it but I didn't pay attention enough to think much about it maybe. T said I was in such a dissociated state that even not dissociated, I was dissociated. Now I am starting to notice things like starting in this place and ending up in this place but before I don't think I was in my head long enough to even know that.

I used to think people were tricking me a LOT. I have such major trust issues and this just compounded it. People would say I was doing this, saying that. Saying I said I would do this, be there, etc. I argued with them to the point that a friend of mine even said that I made him start to think he was crazy because I was so adamant that it did not happen that he started to question himself.

I too have been doing something and think I am there the entire time only to find out I wasn't. I get so "proud" of myself thinking yay, I was present the whole time and then someone will talk about something that happened during that time period and I'm sitting there thinking, no, wait, what? It's frustrating. Sometimes now I can feel myself start to slip away. I think probably somewhere in my brain I could before, but I just didn't have a lot of awareness or even knowledge that whatever was happening wasn't a common day occurrence for everyone.

It might be that you just have a bad memory or it could be something more. Do you have a therapist that can help you through this?

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