I've been struggling my entire life with these problems in my head. Some are more severe than others. When I met my husband I felt great. I was off meds and I was loving life. For the first time in my life I was close to happiness. I've never been fully happy but that was the closest I had ever been. We got married 13 months after we started dating and I was still happy. We've had out problems but I was still doing great. I had our daughter 2 1/2 years later and was still doing great. Than out of no where the feelings started coming back. The lack of memory, the lack of any kind of emotion, the paranoia. It's like everything that went away right before I met my husband came back in a tidal wave. I redeveloped my eating disorder as well. I lost 80 pounds in about 7 months.
My husband knew that and I've tried talking to him about my other problems but he just doesn't want to listen. Every time I tell him there is something wrong with my head he blows me off and says I'm not crazy. He says nothing is wrong with me when clearly something is. The only thing that didn't come back was my self mutilation and I'm thankful for that but I just don't know how to make my husband understand.
I need to see a therapist and I have an appointment next week to get a referral to see one, but I know my husband wont be happy with it. I know he wont want me to go and eventually will talk me out of going once I feel even the slightest bit better. This has happened before and I don't know how to keep it from happening again. Any ideas on how to get my husband to listen and put his ideas to the side to be here for me?