Hi,
I'm not sure how its going with my bf. It seems like we're going further and further apart, or at least I'm realising we're more and more incompatible with each other, but usually I can't stop myself seeing him. Usually we get sexual in some way. But it ends up with me feeling hurt.
It's hard to explain what is happening, but he gets really annoyed with me. Thoughout the months its varied with reactions like, he wants to be left alone, he's walked out of my apartment, etc, ie. in he just feels like he cant stand me, yet he usually asks me to come back, and promises that it'll get better. But we don't really have anything there. I mean we talk about some things and he's understanding sometimes, but I don't know what we have anymore. I feel like he gets frustrated with me unreasonably, or that if its so frustrating, why does he even want to be with me. I don't feel very appreciated when it's like that. I feel like I can't even explain that fully to him sometimes incase he gets offended. It feels like I have to hold back my words because he gets moody. And then he says im stressing him out, so I've never just been able to say it straight. I said that i was sad because we hadn't gone out many times in so many months, its always my house or his house, or close by the house, it feels kinda like its just convenient for him or something, and he doesn't make an effort to ask to hang out with me or take me out, more like some kinda takeaway service that he orders in.
I feel sad. And I don't feel happy or appreciated in this relationship.
in my last relationship I was underappreciated also, should I just spend time alone? I'm also depressed sometimes, I don't even feel like trying to find another guy or another relationship.