To Orange Blossom, thanks for the support it means so much to me. I did recently move and I know it causes stress and could possibly be one reason for all of my problems but it can't be any more stressful this time around. I have moved 28 times in the barely 22 years I have been alive so I have grown used to it and mostly enjoy moving and getting a fresh start. Kind of like I am running away from my problems at times.
My husband wont buy the "feeling blue" either. I've tried that on him and he says "Everyone feels like that sometimes get over it." My husband is a wonderful man he just is stubborn.
Thank you for the support though it means a lot again to me!

Kaika, thank you for the reply and the support as well. It's comforting knowing that I am not alone. I know I'm not but to actually find someone who has experienced the same thing and someone who I can be honest with and not hide this so they don't think I'm a psychotic freak, is nice.
One of the best weeks of my life was when I was put in a hospital. I asked to go and what made it so wonderful was that I was surrounded by people my age who were just like me, people who I could talk honestly and openly to and they listened and supported me. I forgot what that was like. Thank you for reminding me!