If I have one wish, I would start my life all over again except that time would never go back no matter how hard you wished. And that fact made me feel so vulnerable, as if I have no control of my life at all.

I know that living in the past will just screw up the future but I can't help imagine how better would my life be if I changed this, or that.

Sometimes I wish I could stop time, or even better, to sleep forever. In that case, I think I won't have to worry about the future anymore.

What's the future for me anyway? It's dark, gloomy and vague.