A vague future most can tolerate. Gloomy and dark - that's another matter. I remember a time several years ago when my future was looking grim. I was paralyzed with fear, sick to my stomach and suffered violent headaches.

Now, drugs take take the edge off the worst symptoms (all but a couple, anyway), and life has settled into a rhythm that accommodates my illnesses. I'm far from what I was, though.

Your future, Lonelyperson92, has yet to happen. Life can be really weird. Who knows, maybe one or more of those "regrets" could turn out to be doors to unexpected happiness. Yes, that's what I wish for you: unexpected happiness.