(((((((((((((((((((Calista+12)))))))))))))))))) I'm so sorry. Does T allow you to call her or email her while she is away? My T here checks her email when she is gone and we text message a lot (I have difficulty talking on the phone). Sometimes I will text her and ask her to leave a voicemail. Is that an option?

For me, I guess I dissociate more when I am distressed, which is kind of stuffing it I think. I've also had times when information comes in front of the barriers and then it's gone again, like it's been sucked back. That usually happens when it's too much I think. I sometimes will remember that we talked about something hard or that hard stuff came up, but it's completely gone, no memory and no emotion, just knowledge that something was there.

Maybe you can write T letters in a journal while she is gone so you can feel connected. You could bring them to her when she gets back or throw them away or keep them, whichever is more comfortable.

How long is T going to be gone? We are here to support you.