It's nice to meet you thinker!
I'm new here. Not even sure if I am bipolar. The doctors keep changing their minds about me. Anyway I can relate to what your saying. the first thing that comes to mind is that quote about how no man's an island. if you were no longer here then all mankind would be diminished due to your absence. It's strange but I find it comforting on how you and other posters here have thought about their impact on the environment. It makes me feel not so weird. So you see: in seeking help for yourself, you have helped another. Thanks! I hope to get to know you better.