And nobody seems to know who is covering for him. My t-doc and I have spent the last two sessions trying to get in touch with someone. I think I am going to end up in the Er soon. My husband's grandmother (who is 101) is dying right now and I just don't think I can handle that news. I want to offer myhusband sympathy and support but it is hard to do while I am feeling this way. I am going to write hima letter so he knows that I care, but he is angry with me right now anyway for another reason. I spoke sharply to him yesterday (before he found out about his grandmpother) because the dog was nipping at my son and he was afraid and I needed my husband to come in and either calm the dog or do something. I get afraid of the dog when he is wild like that. (Never should have gotten a dog) He stopped and said, "Excuuuusssseeee me?" as if I were a child who was speaking out of line to an elder. I said that he can't care about the tone pf my voice but just get the dog off my son. He yelled at me and was very angry with me so I left to take a walk. Then I came home, took my meds and slept until 10 am this morning.

I hate this. I just can't handle life any more.