Quote: Tomorrow is my birthday.. told my mother I didn't feel like visiting which disappointed her. It's just another day to me. Why would I want to celebrate 32 years of failure and disappointment? Seriously how can I be excited about a birthday or even celebrate something like that?! I'm nothing more than an emotional and financial burden. I'm incapable of doing anything.. An utter waste of life and air. Seriously ill pass.

I had to come back to your post because except for a few exceptions I could have written this myself, my birthday is coming up also and I am trying to convince my daughters and bf that I do not want to celebrate it and they do not understand..
My hope for you is that you do feel better on your birthday and that your days get better.
My thoughts will be with you