I suffer from depression. I have been feeling bad recently. Just to explain I was seeing a college counseller about my issues, but the counselling ended for the school vacation period. At my last appointment I was feeling upset and depressed, but had put my name on the waiting list at another counselling agency for support over the summer until college starts back. My counseller gave me her email adress and told me to contact her if I wanted to ask anything. I briefly mentioned about getting counselling somewhere else but I wasn,t specific about it. Anyway that was about a month ago and I was told that I will have to wait at least another 5 weeks for an appointment at the new counselling agency. I had been feeling increasingly depressed and upset over the past 2 months and yesterday I felt really desperate and couldn,t stop crying.

I emailed my college counseller and explained that I feel really bad but she has not replied to my email. I feel really hurt and rejected by this, especially as I was feeling so desperate when I emailed her.

I do not understand why she is not replying as she knows how bad things get for me. I was feeling really low anyway, but this has pushed me further into despair. I feel like I have no support and noone to speak to until my new counselling appointment arrives from this new agency.

I also feel confused about my counselling with this counseller as sometimes she would tell me personal things about her own problems and life. I never asked her anything personal or anything about her life. I only spoke about my own problems. She was always sympathetic and caring towards me and speaking to her did help me cope better. At the time I didn,t think too much about what she was saying. She even told me she had had counselling herself for stress at work and that she had suffered with depression herself.

At the last appointment she started crying when I was upset and said that she had grown to care for me. She also asked if she could give me a hug and said that she always looked forward to the days when we had our appointments(tuesdays). She said that it was going to take her a while to adjust to the end ofour sessions but that she would do all that she could to be back next year.

I simply thought she was just being a caring professional and that she was a genuinely caring person. I did however find it surprising when she said that she looked forward to the days when my appointments were.

In light of this I can,t understand why she is not replying to my email when I am feeling so depressed and desperate.

However I am beginning to question the therapy I had with her and whether she was simply a genuinely caring person who cared about me professionally or whether her comments and behaviour were unethical or inappropriate for a counseller to make.

I do not feel that she has done anything wrong but I am the one who is depresed and confused and hurting right now. Can anyone tell me what there thoughts are on the counseller and what she did and said. I would appreciate if a therapist could even tell me if what happened was unethical and why she might not be replying to my emails.

Thanx