(i am double dipping)

I have an interview with Big Brother Big Sister today. I am extrememly nervous and anxious about it.

For many reasons.

Was up a lot of the night and the part where i was asleep i had scarey nightmares (not that unusal, but even more intense last night).

I am hyped up on caffein and took a klonopin for my nerves.

I am scared for many reasons. One of which they ask you about mental illness. I will not lie.

I am also scared I'll pass the interview but no parent will want a mentally ill Big Sister.

AND I am scared a parent will want me and I will become a Big Sister!!!!

But here I go anyway...