So I have an appt in 2 weeks with a new P-doc just 15 miles north of here. I hope it works out because my backup appt is 40 miles away and every time I need a meds change...yowsers, I'll have to drive 80 miles and take up 3 hours with the appt included, not to mention gas.

I'm feeling insecure again. Not sure why. Maybe because the p-nurse hasn't even tried to apologize. It just feels odd leaving it the way it was left. I even tried to come back to her a couple of times pleading that she change the meds, but she refused, I nearly wound up in the hospital and had to take myself off of that awful stuff. Now I'm hypomanic, but at least I'm not...you know. I'll take insomnia anyday to how I felt before. But really, she says nothing? Not even an email or a message to me through someone else. We worked together for 13 months. I know she's busy, but it reconfirms my theory that she gave up on me a month ago and stopped trying to find new solutions. It makes me mad and upset, but I still feel like good riddance too.

Why do people have to be like that? We'd both feel better if she admitted she was wrong and then I could admit that she tried her best and I was grateful for that.