im sorry to everyone if i keep annoying you all with my pointless threads about how i feel, this is the thing i annoy myself when i talk about how i feel so i can only imagine that im annoying alll of you, for that im sorry,

i just dont know who i am, or whats wrong with me, i feel so good one minute next minute im so down, righ now and i feel this way more and more i feel so worthless, feel im not good enough for anyone, feel like im disappointing people no matter what i do which gets me even more upset, then i think im not good enough or pretty enough for my boyfriend and i think he should be with some one else, and that gets me more upset

feeling all these things is confusing and is upsetting me and muddeling me up and i just dont know what to do anymore, just feel if i was on my own away from everyone i wouldnt hurt or disappoint people anymore,

i know i need to get help but i dont like baring my problems on anyone dont want to burdon them, i have such a hard time expressing how i feel, what iv gone through in life and what im still going through, i just cant seem to tell anyone cause it hurts me to think about my crappy life, i know this is a long read and im sorry, just feel like crap right now and didnt know where else to turn