Recognition of the need to make a change has been for me, one of the of initial steps out & away from the depths of each bout of depression. To have had that thought, you have to at least partially climbed out of the fog - which is a plus in itself. What exactly that step needed to be has not always been obvious, but for me, it's usually been something small & often, it was just taking the step itself that mattered most, whatever form that step happened to take - just achieving one little act of defiance against the feelings can let you take back some control over the negative thought processes that help keep you down. Then, hopefully, one step leads to another & then on to loftier goals.

Wishing you strength & positive thoughts