well another day has past. I still feel the pain and that will take time to go away. I still can't help but go over in my mind this abrupt change. On Sunday i over hear her talking to her Friends and family over the Phone and she was saying she met this great guy. I wasn't eavesdropping ( OK maybe a little but that made me feel great then On Wednesday It is like a 180 degree turn. It will take time to get my feeling about all this in some order. in the mean time. i Know that I am a good man. decent , caring, and loving. all the things that woman say that want. i do need to work on the package some. losing pounds is a good idea for my over all health not not just to make me look better. yes i am quirky If I had money , I would be a slight eccentric. without money your just quirky. I'm fine with my quirky life. There are a lot of very nice lovely woman out there who want a life in the suburbs with all the comforts. that's wonderful for them. I have dated so many woman and They seem to just want the same type of guy that they divorced.
I'm starting to ramble here.
if things don't work out Then i will keep looking. i was in an empty marriage fora number of years. I want someone in my life. I want to have that mutual supporting kind of relationship. each partner helping the other using your strengths to off set their weakness. I want it filled with laughter and adventure. She should be young at heart. Still willing to dream and seek whatever it is worth seeking. There is a quote I read some years ago, It is one that I love. " I want to die a young man at a very advanced age."