Cool guys thanks. Amaviena, I will look for some of those books. Thinker, thanks for the reminder. I started today great actually, sleeping on it really helped. I went to work, and it was great. No one bothered me about what I was sick with or why I wasn't talking about it. All the kids missed me and were glad to have me back. And I was happy to be back and had a great time with the kids. I missed everyone. Soooo...my negative diatribe of last night is over. I am feeling positive again and had a great night with my partner laughing and talking.