nothing much going on here. trying to have a relationship but it's hard cause it's hard for me to trust, and talk, and a lot of other things.

i've been pretty good for a while though. up and down a lot but i've been better in the past 6 months than i have in the past few years. i don't cut anymore, just completely stopped and i havent since i don't know when. i would i just dont remember what made me wanna anymore. i talk to people to help me, but i'm tired of ups and downs. its so exhausting and doesnt seem to last. just let me stay here a bit. i'll try later, but not now, let me build up some hope.

meh..just thoughts as i think em so probably not making much sense. so ima go..bored as all get out cause the chatroom is oddly empty a lot..but i'll be around..