I get medicine start a few days ago and feels better, I don't feel lost, I can function and don't have any panick attack again everytime I see something remind me of the past. But I ma having flashback so bad feeling sad and melancholy all day till I fall dawn when I get home crying so hard feeling

been a while I didn't get flashback but now seems like the grieving cycle comes to the bottom again. feeling sad missing him but hate and afraid too because when I guess i can not afford to meet him too coz I will feel so small and like a crap for him. He done a good job suck my self esteem until feeling un worthed and crap myself

I wonder how to get rid off the flashback..