All right. Many of you (if not all of you) have been wondering what in the name God has been going on with me and my attitude and since you’ve all been such wonderful friends to me I owe you all an explanation and an apology. Some things have happened in the last few weeks concerning both my mental and my physical health. I can’t really explain what’s happened in detail because it’s just to difficult for me, but because of what’s happened I have to leave the forums. I asked Doc John repeatedly to delete my account because it’s important to tie up my loose ends and I consider this to be one of those. Because I was extremely vague with Doc, he decided to put off granting this request to make sure that I wasn’t going to change my mind, and I don’t blame him for that. Well, after a couple weeks of asking and being under a time crunch here, I felt that I had to get his attention. That’s why I said what I said. I know that there’s no excuse for the things I’ve said and my reasons don’t make it right, but I felt that it had to be done. I want every single member here to know that nothing that was said is ANY indication of my true feelings. If you want my true feelings, here they are. I love each and every one of you more than I could ever begin to describe in a lifetime. You all have shown me nothing but love, friendship, and support. Some of us have had our differences, but we’ve always seemed to work them out and end up as better friends than we were before. Sadly, after what I’ve said I feel that this will not be the case. I deeply regret that I have hurt your feelings and I humbly ask for forgiveness, although I’m not foolish enough to expect it. You’ve all offered me friendship and I’ve burned that. I’ll be around for another week and I’ll do my best to answer any questions that you may have to the best of my abilities. Again, I’m deeply sorry and I love you all so very much. Thanks for taking the time to read.

All my love and friendship,
Ry