Thank you.

I'm very tired and anxious as hell about the residential. All I can think is:

'avoid food at all costs, don't eat in front of anyone, don't eat at all if I can!'

it's not fair. I hate these thoughts milling about in my head. It makes me so anxious I'm wearing my kaftan today. I made sure I bought it so that it was a size too big, so that I could cover up how fat I am and stuff. I know I've lost weight, i know the scales tell me I have but it doesn't stop me feeling the way I do and wanting to lose more

Sigh. Today is no better than yesterday. Ugh.