I'm ok I just have a heavyneaa inside right now that will last for who knows how long. I'm ok its no dif than any other drop. Unless it ends quickly. I'm not feeling suicidal so that is good. Not to the point I want to cut. So that is good. Just started again. And maybe will end fast this time. This is why I'm not sure if I'm ill at all sometimes the changes are so quick that I dnt have time to settle into it. I've had days where I was crying and in dispair one moment and the next was completely laughing like a maniac. Its just weird and hard to explain and I just don't know right now. Feeling down and lost at the moment.