HI Ryan - although we did not come in contact often on the boards, I certainly think you are a good person, and you have MANY loving and supportive friends here for sure !!!! I hope whatever it is that you cannot talk about here, you will soon feel better about. I was not upset or hurt by your postings , but I was very concerned - seeing a side of you that I knew meant you were perhaps in some type crisis. IF and when you leave this forum, please take all the wonderful supportive posts and caring friendships with you in your heart.