I'm from South Africa and I am Caucasian (White). I'm from mixed Dutch, French and German stock. That makes me an Afrikaner. My home language is Afrikaans. It sounds a lot like Dutch. My surname is French. We, Afrikaners were responsible for Apartheid. A great sin. I grew up thinking it was normal that different cultures lived apart from each other. I was too young to know that our government used this as a way too take away the rights of non-whites. They were repressed. Our newspapers never reported the truth in those days. They made the freedom strugglers out as criminals. The crimes of the police force were always justified. We didn't know the truth. In my teenage and student years, I was too wrapped up in my own things, I never took notice of the news and any attrocities. I was 24 when democracy came to this country. Today I still have a guilt feeling about being an Afrikaner and I'm ashamed of our history. I'm the only one in my family with guilt feelings and they don't understand me. I know these feelings stem from bad self-esteem, but I can't stop feeling guilty. What should I think and do about this?