I just wanted to say thanks to all those people who offer advise for my situation. I come to this forum to vent about life. Yeah coming to a place where I know there are people with similar situations helps me. Knowing my life is not going the way I wanted it to, and seeing other people dealing with life issue's too. It does help me a lot. I really don't want any one to feel sorry for me. I just want to know that I'm not the only one Not getting what I want. Life is tough and the saying life is what you make does really makes sense. Some people don't deserve to have a bad life and some people do. God makes those choices for us. I have made a lot of decisions good and bad. Sometimes I feel I don't deserve the road I'm on. I also know that the only way to change my life is to make changes. Strong people don't usually ask for help. But we all need help time to time. Thanks to those who offer support.