Okay, no problem. There will always be those who say you can will a mental disorder away. Of course they would say that! They've never had months of insomnia and projects followed by months of despair! They've never hallucinated while on nothing or have lost their will to live when their brain was making them feel so terrible that they thought it was the only way out. They think meds and therapy are BS because they themselves don't have a chemical problem (or they do and are in denial).

I feel like telling them: if I could will my way out of these terrible mood swings, don't you think I would have by now? I exercised like mad as any child does during recess and sports (I played many) as a child. I had a good diet. I did my school work. I was a bit precocious (haha, okay, a lot), but still I had terrible spells of depression and questioning the meaning of existence since age 7 and also super silly hypomania where people wouldn't even recognize me as the same person they thought they knew. This continued through high school where some thought I was a class clown and others thought I was a total withdrawn brooder and when they got together they didn't believe each other's description of me. I just laughed. I didn't think it was a problem at all except when depressed. I wanted to be the happy funny person all the time. Okay, enough of my bio...I could go on and on.

Suffice it to say, ignore the ***holes who don't understand the severity of mental illness. I'd like to shoot their *** full of my natural chemicals and see if they could even survive a day of being me without running to the hospital saying, "WTF is wrong with me? I feel sick."

I have to hold it together for 11 more days also.