((tishtosh))

something my first counsellor taught me. do you believe if your father were here now you could talk to him about this? do you believe it would help?

if so then talk to him! two ways it can be done. in your head...totally private, but you can still hear his voice answering back, I know, I've tried it. or...get a trusted friend (or counsellor) to take his place. you say to them exactly what you would say to him.

it seems totally weird at first and may take more than one attempt but...believe me it works, it's VERY therapeutic and DOES help one KNOW what one wants to do and...strangely gives the courage, strength, resilience needed to do it.

meantime, please do keep posting as long as you need to. nobody here will ever get bored of helping you in any way they can.