Yup.

Ever since I was in preschool, teachers told my parents that there was something wrong with me... never paid attention or seemed to react to discipline, always seemed distant and spacey. Literally school has been a living hell for me... I dropped out of high school and took online courses... HUUUUGE mistake, but I had cut more days of school than I attended, so there was no way I would graduate. I am so grateful to have the parents that I have, but trying to focus literally brings me to tears... sometimes I feel like I can't even read. As a result I lie to cover up missing work, and put things off to a pathological degree... if I push it out of my conscience I really don't give a ****. I always feel restless... I live in an apartment building and need to run up and down the hallways maybe 30 times a day. My neighbors think I'm crazy

I'm not just a dumb girl trying to make excuses for myself... I really see no future, and I don't want to rock the boat with my parents. Time is running out...I'm going to college next week and I have no faith in myself... I don't even have my high school transcript yet, and my mom told me that I'm shortening her life span. This has been going on for all 18 years of my life... there is a lot more but I'm don't want to depress myself writing about it... I'm a happy person, but every day I'm so full of guilt. I'm really scared... I need help