I am floating in a large body of water, an ocean of depression. I am laying on my back, not moving at all. Not looking, not paddling just laying there waiting to sink. I want to sink but I want to paddle, I don't know what to do. I am lost in this ocean of depression. Every once in a while I try to look to see land, a direction to paddle but I see nothing. I have no direction I am just in a never ending ocean of depression.