I am feeling awful about that other board. I am bordering on obsessive. I keep checking it and I got a nasty overly professional message laying a guilt trip on me about how it is a free service provided by a rich philanthropist and whoever doesn't like it can go to other, unmoderated forums.

Now I think I am going to be up all night thinking about it and wondering if I should go back and bleat. I requested that the rich philanthropist talk to me in a private message rather than simply delete a thread without any notice or reason.

I wasn't offensive. If I asked Ghandi questions that challenged his beliefs, he would sit down with me and have a discussion. If I told the Dalai Lama that I had read The Art of Happiness and disagreed with a few points in his text, he would invite me to discuss it with him and not burn my notes.

I am not usually this mean and defensive. I think I am having dysphoric mania issues. (by the way...just being precautionary and bringing this thread back around full circle, although I was enjoying our discussion on healthcare.)

I think I need to be offline for a few days until settle. (I know I won't...I can't seem to go more than a few hours without checking one board or another.)