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Originally Posted by sunrise
Because I really like him? Because I'm attached? Because we can still do a lot of good work despite this limitation? Because I can work this out so it isn't a problem? Because I have dealt successfully for almost 2 years without having some basic safeties that others have in therapy, such as confidentiality, so this seems like I might be able to handle it too?
But, yeah, I do see your point--thanks. This may require some discussion with T. 
T and I really don't talk that much about our relationship. We do sometimes, and it is fine. We have talked of how close we are--I like basking in that, but sometimes the good feelings are very intense for me to handle. At other times (not often), we have talked about things that haven't worked well. Usually we spend a lot of time working on my feelings about other stuff in my life. I have this worry that if I keep turning the discussion in session to "problems" between me and T, that he will think I don't have anything else left in my life to work on, and so that must mean I don't need to be in therapy anymore. So bye-bye, sunny. |
((((Sunrise))))
Yep. I can so relate to that. Somewhere in the back of your mind you know there will one day be an ending and you fear it and guard against it...and then try to protect yourself from ever having it happen. It's hard to accept that something so wonderful must eventually end, but unfortunately it will one day. Try to enjoy every moment with your therapist. Probably not all that comforting...I know it's hard...
I can understand how you feel for wanting to protect the relationship by not wanting to "rock the boat". The therapeutic relationship is supposed to have different "rules", but when these things come up they give valuable information about how you relate to others as well. So your behavior and feelings are information that you can use positively in this relationship and in your other relationships. Maybe discuss that with T?
I think inevitably everyone has crummy sessions that include misunderstandings. I'm not sure how helpful my saying that is, but if you keep the lines open with your T, hopefully you can work through this and come out of it stronger. Sometimes words don't offer much comfort...I hope you hear from your T very soon.