hi wisewoman. hon I have to say you are a strong woman. You grieved for your parents or lack of love your entire childhood. When they go it is like well what am I suppose to feel now right? I know I did that with my mom. Yes I too get jealous when I see other women on the board about how loving their moms are/were. I wonder what I did so wrong for her to treat me so badly. You and I did nothing wrong. luv ya