I think you have something there. I really do like engaging with someone in this way. I like the nuance of our relationship and would like that in the future if I ever have a partner again. I would really miss this if T and I were to discontinue. I feel we are all human and have this amazing communication capability if we will only use it, whether verbally or physically or whatever--a slight change in the tone of voice, a barely perceptible widening of the eyes. T and I have a lot of different dynamics at work in our relationship, and I truly love that. I would sorely miss not being able to engage with another human being on all these levels. Chaotic, I do think I need very much to have this "deeper type of exchange." I think it has been a yearning of mine for a long time, so long I had forgotten I had it (during the two decades I was paired with a man who would not engage with me). Before I was married, I had a relationship with a man and there was a lot of similar complexity in our interactions--lots of nuance and levels. It is interesting because in the first year or so of seeing my T, I dreamt often of this man from my past--like maybe a half dozen times or more. I think the spirit of that man within me (I won't forget that signifcant relationship from my early adulthood) was awakened by my first interactions with T. I "remembered."