when i got out i realized that others were going to treat me different thinking i was crazy and things. It made me dwell alot about how i was going to be it started when i was in the hospital but i found when i got home i was treated like my old self. Not the person i am with issues. In your case i would think about how it feels to be able to be free while in a hospital where you have to do what they say eat what they want and when they want.

I almost they make it rough in a hospital to make you want to go home .. or its a way to weed out whos really got issues .. all i know is be glad your home while you may not have control 100 percent what you feel .. you do have in knowing your free and at home. I just hope home for you is good. Just remeber sometimes things are good when they dont change while your gone .. its a good comfort zone to come back to so you can figure out how to deal and make the best of things. I wish i had a better answer im sorry but i know when i got out i was glad to be away from the hell there .. it certainly made my hell at home alot less.