I have had a pretty s***** life. When I was 4 years old I witnessed my biological father stab my biological mother 16 times. I was also abused emotionally, physically, and sexually. I constantly have flashbacks and nightmares. Then when my adopted dad (my hero) was diagnosed with cancer he. My lfe came crumbling down. He then later died 6 days before his birthday. Like I said (my hero) my dad was the best person that ever came into my lfe. I have a los been a victim of rape. So you see my coping skills revolve around the chaos that I have been through. I also want people to realize that I completely understand that others have had it worse so I try to think like that on a day to day basis. I have been in T since I was 4 years of age. Its so hard for me to accept to things that I have been through. Its like stupid s*** continues to bother me on a day to day basis. I have tryed to talk aboout these things in T but it always sends me backwards instead of getting better and I HATE it.