(((((Miss C)))))
I am expereinceing such similar feelings. I also just posted something with a dream.....

You know, it seems to be one of the most difficult part of therapy to really communicte to our t's the need for more help and care. Feeling S is so desperately painful especially when the emotion isnt reachable. I always hope that my t does understand that if the emotion isnt there that my words will be enough. I really count on that. That I have to be able to get the words out in a way that she will understand me and take me seriously. That she will understand that I am not threatening anything, I just need her help.

It really sounds like your t is very nurturing He understands, is hearing you and is taking your feelings seriously whether you are able to access them or not.