AAAhhh, it's heartbreaking. I know this sounds stupid, but it's for the better, especially if he is gay. I am going through a divorce, and i wish i knew the reasons why. He just tells me I don't make him happen and uses the past as excuses. I know he has been talking with other women, etc. but for some stupid reason if it were that he were gay, i could feel more for him and less angry.