Well, I have always wondered at the therapeutic benefits of speaking of my childhood......I have never even discussed it in therapy.......I have flatly refused......

I don't remember it anyway and I am not about to start.......but I am building up my comfort levels to speak of a dream.......a recurring nightmare that went for 2 years after I finished therapy the first time. that is all I associate with my childhood.

I also have Borderline Personality Disorder........I have denied the PTSD dx, not because I have a problem with it, but felt I had enough to deal with.

I am 35, as hyper-vigilant as I ever was.......angry, suspicious, nervous, territorial. I am much more peaceful about who I am and have forgiven so that I may absolve.......

But very occassionally........I ask what really happened?