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i am so sorry you are feeling bad, please dont seclude yourself - that only adds to the depression - i dont really have any advice - as has been said when depressed i force my self whne i can to go out - it does help.
As to the alters - that must have been scary for you - i can only offer you my support - i am here if you need me - I am gald you ahve a T to help you through this and i wanted you to know that i and many others are always happy when you turn up in chat.
take care P7
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts 
its how many times you get back up! 
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When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet