It is scary not to feel anything..I have had that feeling, the lack of feeling...it is terrifying..perhaps the part of your symptoms that you miss is the manic part...that part is really interesting..or seeing things, that can be interesting too..Perhaps you can acheive a balance, where yes, you can feel things, and yet your symptoms are nothing too disturbing..write back and tell us more...you didn;t give too many details..I care about you.