Why do I want to be her friend? That's a very good question. The kind that really makes me stop and think. The first answer that came to mind is that it "feels good" to be with her. We had a lot of fun when we were friends. But then I can always have fun with other people, can't I? It's just not easy for me to make friends.

At one time, I had myself convinced that I had accepted her just as a friend. Perhpas I had myself fooled. You're right, she doesn't want anything except to be friends. Except now, I'm not even sure she wants that.