When will I overcome the sadness that controls evey bone in my body everyday of my life...When will I be strong the strong parent who knows that leaving my failed long marriage is the best for everyone in this family.. When will I stop thinking I need to do what everyone else wants me to do. I dream of being in my own place on my own sitting on a couch reading a bood stressfree and happy with my laughing children playing in another room. I dream also that my husband understands that we cant change or fix us and that he to finds peace and happiness and I truly believe he will if we let each other go. I want peace......