just can't process all of the pain that we're feeling. . .everyone at work is wishing us well for our b'day and all we want to do is cry and cry. can barely be here at work right now. not everyone inside feels 41 and birthday's are a trigger for some too. . .The hurt is overwhelming us.
we're bad and stuped
we don't deserve good attentions
we should be punished for being so stupid and needy and difficult.
hate our body and selves right now. just want to go away. . .